The best thing about 2019 is that everything women have always hated has come into question. I’m mostly referring to all the things that were made by men “for women.” High on that list is Victoria’s Secret. The lingerie chain canceled its annual television fashion show and is closing 53 stores. Victoria’s Secret models aside, there was not one woman who did not despise that runway erotica.

Still, we’d all gather with our girlfriends every December and watch with bottles of wine, ready to drink ourselves into oblivion. My penchant for watching things that disgust me disgusts me more than the thing I’m watching. I don’t know why we all watched when we hated it and everything it stood for so much. Probably the same reason we’ll stalk models on Instagram for hours. Inspiration? Masochism? Definitely the latter.